Never say never

I would never write a blog! How self indulgent! It's like a facebook post with no word limit. It's like thinking people would want to read your journal. Well I'm one of those people who uses the "n" word ( the word is Never) only to jinx myself and have karma bite me in the ass and make me end up doing the exact thing I said I would never do. I used to be more judgmental and critique peoples parenting skills. Then I had four kids of my own and did all the same things I swear I'd never do. I let the kids have pacifiers, sleep in our bed, get cell phones and laptops and have even paid them to score soccer goals. My life long goal has always been to get my act together and it's never seemed to work out as I had planned. Be a better mother, a better wife, a better housekeeper, a better Christan, a better friend, be thinner, be more fit, be better at correspondence, volunteer more, start a business, be a better saver! Don't get me wrong, I'm not a complete loser. I just always want to be better. I realize Nike says to "just do it" and I may write down that motto and intend to just do it, but then I think, maybe tomorrow, maybe after a nap, or after my DVR'd episode of Grey's Anatomy. I am a firm believer that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phillipians 4:13) but I guess I don't prioritize my deadlines for my expectations to be met and sometimes I convince myself that God wants me to sit on the couch and watch tv. Through this blog I am going to record my journey of taking baby steps (most likely forward and backward) to actually accomplishing the tasks I set out to achieve. I'm also going to work on not being so disappointed in myself for not being the person I long to be but instead I want to be positive about my efforts and grow from the journey of self discovery. I'd love to have fellow troops along the way if you'd like to join me in my journey. As I attempt to get it together I hope you will be getting it together too. And if you already have it together feel free to give me any tips or the link to your blog! Fondly, Shelly Costello