Perception, Vicodin and DVDs

I have some shocking, gasping, breath taking news!  I’ve actually gotten something together!!!  You can too!   I sent all my old VHS videos (30 years worth) to a company who turned them all into DVDs and mailed them back to me.  You don’t know how many times I’ve purchased some sort of transfer equipment over the years and threatened to actually do this myself.  Yes, maybe I spent a little more turning to one of these companies, but time wise, this was completely worth it!  I know there are lots of local places who do this as well but I used a company called Southtree (www.southtree.com) http://southtree.com/http://southtree.They did a great job and labeled what I had labeled and left blank what I didn’t. After having minor surgery last week, I was laid up a couple of days (huge bummer having to rest) and used some of this time to watch a DVD here and there and label what is actually on there. There are many options of how to convert these videos.  For me, I thought DVD would make the most sense.    

It was interesting to watch a 10 year old video of my family at Christmas and remembering what I thought at that time compared to what I thought as I viewed it ten years later.  Granted I was pretty loopy on Vicodin watching the video, I still noticed so many great things I hadn’t thought of before.  I remember at the time the video was made I didn’t want to be on camera because of my weight and I also remember wishing we were in a bigger house, and I also felt pretty overwhelmed a lot of the time having four kids and not getting all things done I wish I could.  As I watched the video I didn’t think I looked that bad and all I saw was a very happy family in a nice cozy living room laughing and enjoying each other.  It’s interesting how our perception changes with time, experience, wisdom and maturity (and Vicodin). We focus on the negative so easily but with time we realize that there are times in our lives we should have just cherished instead of worrying so much about how we were perceived.

I’m thinking about that picture where you can see a young woman's profile one way when you look at it or an old woman's face if you look at it another way.  I don’t think there’s a right or wrong about what you are supposed to see – unless the lady is moving, then back off the Vicodin.  Truly, what matters is not what others see but it is what you feel about yourself.  If you are not that crazy about yourself right now, find one good thing you like and let it shine through.  What we put out is what people see.  I’m a firm believer in a cup half-full attitude.  Between being positive and praying it seems like life is much easier to handle.  When I get a “poor me” attitude it seems like I am surrounded by negativity.  Notice when someone tells you something negative it’s easy to answer with some negative of your own.  It’s harder to spread positive energy but it’s much more productive.

So, because of my drug induced rambling, I’m feeling good about myself.  One, I got my video project done that I’ve been wanting to complete forever and two, I’m realizing that even though I don’t like myself in videos now I’m going to look great when I watch them ten years from now!